My dreamgirl

I met you in paradise

You were there naked

I was too shy to look.

You said today we swim naked

For me there was no excuse.

I took off my thrauses

and layed next to you.

You were so hot,

I couldn’t hide my errection

And you were just laughing

No need for perfection

We were eating the sun.

I came back later

To have some fun

And then I realized,

Where I have seen you before.

You were on my desktop

a long time ago.

You were now real

I met my creation

My mysterious girl.

You’re back on my desktop

And now I know

That you are somewhere

Enjoining the show.

But one day you will know

I will take away that sadness

And bring you some real snow.

Ayahuasca ceremony

I finally did my first ayahuasca ceremony here on Koh Phangan island. After years of calling and asking the Universe to give me an opportunity to experience the plant medicine I finally gave up. I stopped thinking about it and lost my interest. Then all of a sudden I was surrounded by people all talking about it, sharing their experiences and preparing for the next ceremony. For some of those girls it was second or even third time to do the ceremony. I had the right amount of money in my pocket, so me and my friend from New York decided to join them. It was a ceremony for nine people from around the world, mostly women. Ceremony was held by a British guy, who was very strict and serious.  During the trip I found out how strong my mind is to keep everything in order. I had to take three doses to get deeper into myself. I figured that I need to change my mind domination and get connected with my heart. Continue reading

Do we need time all the time?

Time helps us to organize our life. Time keeps us busy. It shows if we are late or we are too early. We feel good when we are on time. We keep track of time all the time. We made up time and now we are keen to it. We never let go of it. Unless we do something that allows us to forget about time. But this moment don’t last long. Can we survive without time? I’m not sure, but we can try. Let’s have at least one day in a week when we don’t use time at all. Which day would suit You best?

Talking to your fingers.

What if all the people around you are made up by your self, it’s like talking to your fingers. What if you are giving roles to each character in your daydream.

Draw some faces on your fingers and reach your fingers out in front of you. Now you can give a role to each finger. There is your dad, your mother, sister or brother,your friend, your teacher, police officer, priest or a neighbor. Now your fingers has become your authorities. You stop doubting in what they are saying to you. Think about it, if you create all the characters in your story, how can they know more about you than yourself. Next time another authority will come to tell you how the things are and what you should do, imagine him as one of your fingers and then decide what is best in this moment. Don’t ever doubt in yourself, even if you might be wrong. I have been told since I was kid that I should listen to my parents, that parents are always wiser than children, but it’s actually not true, because every new generation is always smarter than the previous. This authority program decreases our true potential.