What happened on Tantra festival? Part 2

The story about festival HOL continues.

The third day at the festival started with a heart opening gathering. The energy went so high that everyone could feel it. There was much more love in the air compared to the beginning. People started to open up and share the blissful presence with each other. During the day I had many profound experiences on the workshops. We were going deeper and deeper with every exercise. At one point I felt my consciousness expanded to the new level. My perception of sound and light shifted. I felt so much more in each moment.

After a busy day of workshops and tasty food we had a beautiful concert by Praful – a man with the passion for folk music mixed with spiritual wisdom and tantric vibe. He creates magic in the air with his poetic presence. I dived into the flow of flute music and beats. I felt like flying in the room. My body was moving with the music without me in control. Suddenly I felt hands on my body. These were tantric hands, they were touching me in different way. I hadn’t felt the touch like this before. Someone came behind me and started dancing with me. It was someone I haven’t met before. I didn’t look behind and kept on dancing. I used only my hands to explore the visitor. Her body was soft and thin. She was wearing a light dress. We were dancing like this for at least ten minutes until I couldn’t resist my curiosity and looked behind. It was a beautiful lady with sparkling eyes and perfect body. We were dancing and playing that night until the party was over and we promised to meet at the love lounge.

When I entered the love lounge it was already filled with couples. It seemed that everyone had already found a partner. The hosts were explaining the rules for the evening. I settled in the middle of the room and waited. Soon this beautiful man approached me for a friendly chat. It was the same guy who played guitar the other night. We both felt that something was between us but we didn’t dare to act. We were in the middle of the room surrounded with couples. We were not allowed to speak there so we were about to leave the room when a friend of mine found us. It was a girl who is totally new in tantra. She was surprised to see me and joined us immediately. That changed everything..

Next moment the three of us were kissing each other. We were taking our clothes off and touching each others bodies. This was the first time for me touch a man. It was so different from woman’s body. The girl’s skin was soft and gentle but the man was hard and solid. We were experiencing high orgastic energy around us. The play became so intense that it was breathtaking. We were caressing and giving pleasure to each other. The energy grew and we lost the track of time and space. There were no others around us any more. All I could see, was this couple in front of me kissing each other and kissing me. I think it lasted for four hours when we finally calmed down and laid down under the blanket when I said: “Guys, this was just a foreplay” and all three of us couldn’t stop laughing. Because we were flying for hours in this orgasmic sexual energy and non of us didn’t even take his pants off!

I was wondering, how could it get any better?

What happened on Tantra festival? Part 1

I went to tantra festival this summer. It’s called High on Life and it takes place every year in nature somewhere in Estonia. A cozy event with no more than 200 people where you can really relax, expand your boundaries and make lot’s of close friends. This time I really expanded my boundaries in tantric lifestyle and experienced new relationships.

The first day of festival was calm and peaceful intro to the week long living with my new family. People were curious and friendly, but everyone preferred to hold his own space. I was busy with preparations for my movie debut. In the evening we had a chance to witness a magical concert by Kadi Uibo who was singing estonian and sanskrit mantras with a lot of beautiful sounds and powerful messages. This concert created the magic in the air for the rest of the festival.

At that night I was showing my second documentary to the crowd. It was pretty late and lot of people were tired after long travel to the festival area, but those who staid to watch the movie didn’t fell asleep and that was a good sign for me. I got lot’s of positive feedback afterwords. This was a really important event for me. I feel much more confident making and showing my movies to people.

The next day at the festival was a sunny day with a lot of tasty indian food and interesting workshops. People were getting to know each other. There were two saunas where everyone could enjoy the hot steam with naked bodies. It was a beautiful day for a special ceremony. In the evening we had a big fire ceremony. We burned a lot of wood to make hot coals. People were dancing and singing around the fire to create the powerful atmosphere and prepare them selves for walking on hot coals. For many this was the first time in their life to walk on coals. Many of us took the chance to walk on hot coals and overcome the fear of pain and injuries. Men and women were walking on fire one after another. Some of us got some burns on their feet but nothing serious. I walked through the fire for two times and didn’t burn my feet at all. It wasn’t my first time to walk on hot coals but every time there is something new to learn from this experience. It was exciting to see naked people burning their fears in the fire. After the ceremony we took some potatoes and cooked them in the hot coals. Everyone was satisfied and full of excitement. I sat with a blond girl who had eyes of a wolf. We were eating the potatoes and kissing each other. After the ceremony people gathered around the fireplace with lots of different music instruments. Everyone was singing and playing. We made up songs about the festival and jamming with all kinds of sounds. There was a guy who was playing a guitar in such a way like Latin Americans used to play. He was so beautiful I couldn’t resist just watching him playing. This was probably the most beautiful man I’ve seen in my life.

Later that night after hours of playing music and singing around the fire I met this same girl with eyes of a wolf on the way to my tent. It was a sign for me that she was the one for me that night. We talked for a bit and said good night. She was sleeping in her hammock next to my tent. I was entering my tent when I thought – this is not the way I want my day to end. So I invited her to join me and she said Yes! This night was magical. This girl had amazing soft skin and wild soul. We were spooning together and my hands were playing on her body the whole night. In the morning when the sun warmed up our tent, we were pleasuring each other for hours. She even asked me to penetrate her but it wasn’t my intention. We had enough pleasure without sex.

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My dreamgirl

I met you in paradise

You were there naked

I was too shy to look.

You said today we swim naked

For me there was no excuse.

I took off my thrauses

and layed next to you.

You were so hot,

I couldn’t hide my errection

And you were just laughing

No need for perfection

We were eating the sun.

I came back later

To have some fun

And then I realized,

Where I have seen you before.

You were on my desktop

a long time ago.

You were now real

I met my creation

My mysterious girl.

You’re back on my desktop

And now I know

That you are somewhere

Enjoining the show.

But one day you will know

I will take away that sadness

And bring you some real snow.

Magic in France

Last year something magical happened to me. We broke up with my wife three years ago, but we staid together to grow kids and share life. At one point it became very hard for me and I lost meaning in life. I was asking for help. Then Universe sent me an angel in human body. I met a girl who came to Tantra festival in Estonia. She had an inner calling to come there. She didn’t know the language of this country, she didn’t have any friends, but she bought flight tickets and came. We met on the first night of festival. Both me and her were about to leave the gathering when suddenly a group of people picked us and placed in the middle of love circle. We met through hug in anahata circle. After that we couldn’t let go of each other for hours. I met a girl who is like my reflection. We live in different worlds, but we think the same way, we do the same things, it is so strange.

After one month we went to visit her in France with my family. We went there with my two girls and my ex wife. I wanted to find out what is the best way to go further. Should we live all together, or should I stay with my girlfriend. We spent two weeks in beautiful nature of South France.

I promised to love both women, so we were sharing love between three of us. Every day we were making meditations, rituals, having tantric sex and sharing love with each other. This experience was magical. For me it was mind blowing to have two beautiful women sharing love with me and each other. Our kids were with us. They got used to my new girlfriend and became good friends. We also solved many hard feelings, there was anger and pain. Girls were fighting and then making peace and loving each other. By the end of the trip it was clear for me, that I love only one woman. Anastasia solved all of her emotions and felt free. We made a great progress within these two weeks. After that we all felt different even when looking into mirror. I find this very exciting way to move from one relationship to another. We all shared something magical during this journey.

Russian Tantra

Last summer I spent a week in Russian Tantra retreat.
The people there are very extreme. They go far beyond the limits with every practice or exercise. I met girls who were walking on hot coals and broken glass with ease and smile on their face. I learned a lot from russian women. They showed me the other side of love.
I also realized that it’s not enough to be tantric only behind the closed doors, somewhere in nature, away from other people. My next challenge there was to become tantric in public in front of everyone. We had classes in a bar, where people were coming for a drink. We were doing massage and breathing exercises in front of people who didn’t have a clew about energy or tantra.
Then I learned to love all kind of women. It’s easy to share love and do intimate practices with beautiful goddesses, but the real Shiva sees Shakti in any woman. Most of the women on this retreat were much older than me. I learned how to see beauty in any goddess.

Healing relationship with your love.

Here is an exercise for you to do:
Journal, meditate or contemplate on your prior relationships. This will help you in beginning to examine your patterns in relationships with a loving partner. There are four intentions in doing this:
1. The first involves gaining self-awareness and understanding of your patterns of behavior in loving relationships.
2. Then try to determine how your relationship patterns have more to do with you, than the other person.
3. Identify trends in the types of personalities you attract and bring into your life. We often attract people who become our best spiritual teachers, reflecting to us our core beliefs, tendencies and patterns of reality.
4. Relate your personal loving experiences to your behavior in relationship with the Divine.
Then begin to create new energy with the following visualization:
1. Visualize the details of the physical, spiritual, and emotional attributes of your ideal partner.
2. Include what you have experienced, what you desire and what you are willing to offer a loving partner.
3. Resolve how the relationship will create a positive impact on your spiritual unfolding and path.